The one who sees scars out of any other things.
Thinks they are perfect,
To be care, to be sure that this scars won't let the girl torture herself again.
He,
The one who never forgets to go back to where we are,
Whenever thunder strikes, trees are falling, and ground is shaking,
This body isn't a doll to keep watching other people doing things to them,
but He,
Will let 'the doll' out of misery.
He.
The one who act as a sun when the cloud turns grey,
The one who feel joy to do anything as long as there is She.
Promise not to fade away,
But won't promise to stay.
He,
Living the life with many colors,
Stick with the colors,
A beautiful nature to see,
A grateful moment to begin.
This life isn't fairytale where prince charming would fell in love to a poor girl,
But let's make one for both of us.
Life is good,
Where I have friends and someone I love.
My family and you.
Life is good,
Where I have everything I need,
Not all, but I am grateful.
Somehow it is not good when you've found your weakness.
More like weaknesses.
It is sad when people told you to be happy cause they saw you crying that day.
And you know, they don't want you to be sad again.
So, on your birthday they wished you always be happy, always and always, be happy.
Overthinking.
I could not do anything without overthinking.
It does kill me. And it does make me feel like I am useless to everyone.
Don't let them know! Don't let them know!
Yet I often to show.
Leave me alone,
Cause I already used to it.
Don't ever bother me if you've seen me wandering alone,
Cause that's what I need the most.
My mind is progressing. My brain is filled with the things I should've not think about.
My heart is sinking in. Full of emotions.
Because that's what I am supposed to be. A human.
Be patience dear self.
If no one out there is going to help you,
someone up there is willingly to help you.
I know. Don't stop praying.
Better things will come InsyaAllah.
I'm fine. Just fine.
Things happened,
Every single day,
Without people knowing.
And here I am,
Smiling,
Struggling,
Telling myself to be strong,
Cause I know I deserve all this.
Thank you for being part of my life,
Thank you for everything,
The day you entered the door to my world,
The day you left and went find another door,
I still appreciate it.
Any. Single. Thing we did together.
Our stories ends here.
Let's start something new, shall we?
Forgive everything.
And start to smile to each other every single day.
Laugh. Jokes.
And together be STRONG.
InsyaAllah.
Rindu. Saat di mana aku tidak mempunyai sesuatu dan di fikiran hanyalah kamu. Saat di mana kamu mula sibuk melakukan hal dunia. Diri ini ego,
dia tidak memulakan bicara, maka patutkah aku memulakannya dahulu.
Biarlah.
Tapi tak mampu. Semakin rindu.
Bila kita dah menyayangi seseorang. Seorang yang istimewa. Yang ingin dijadikan sebahagian dalam kehidupan pada waktu akan datang, InsyaAllah, dengan izin Allah. Ku sentiasa berdoa pada Dia. Dekatkanlah aku pada orang itu jika benar dia untukkku. Jik tidak, ku mohon kau jauhkan dia dariku dan dekatkanlah dia dengan yang lebih baik daripada diriku ini.
Jujur aku rindu.
Tapi aku lupa.
Rindu aku pada Dia tidak sebegini.
Rindu aku pada Dia tidak sehingga berlinang air mata mengenangkan segala dosa yang telah aku lakukan.
Sangat alpa.
Senang di dunia.
Seksaan di akhirat.
Syukur. Aku bersyukur dengan apa yang telah diberikan oleh Dia kepada aku.
Apabila aku fikir kekurangan ku, mengingatkan kepada ku kepada mereka yang lebih sukar.
Dan aku sentiasa percaya ada hikmah di sebalik apa yang ada pada diriku.
Supaya aku sedar.
Alhamdulillah.
Tapi aku masih kesal dengan diri ini.
Istiqamah?
Usah sebut pasal itu.
Satu sahaja susah untuk dirikan.
Mungkin tunggu sehingga diri ini benar-benar dalam kesusahan barulah lengkap kelima limanya.
Ya Allah.
Aku sedar, rindu ku padaMu tidak seperti perasaan rindu ku pada dia.
Aku berdosa.
Dia maha pengampun.
Dia maha segala-galanya.
Diri,
sedarlah,
mengapa engkau perlu bersedih pada orang yang belum tentu hadir dalam hidupmu
Sedangkan Dia yang selalu berada untukmu, mendengar permintaanmu malah menunaikannya, tidak pernah sekali pun terdetik bagi engkau untul merindukannya.
Ingat mati,
Sentiasa ingat,
Perlu,
Supaya setiap kali engkau mengingati,
Kau akan mula sedar,
Bila-bila masa engkau akan pergi,
Dan engkau akan terfikir,
Cukupkah segala bekalan?
Sekian.
